I've spent some time seriously thinking about my online commitments lately. I stepped down from leading a KAL in one group this Fall, only to step up to moderator status in two groups, and lead various activities within them. I also stepped up my involvement in the first group in which I earned my sheep, by leading a more intensive learn-a-long. I'm tired. I feel like I have a ton of crafting deadlines and obligations that aren't being met, because I'm spending so much time online. And many of those deadlines are only meaningful in terms of earning imaginary points. Don't get me wrong, I like the points, but something has to give.
Starting in December, I've decided to cut back on my group involvements dramatically. I'm not leaving any of them or anything, but I'm not going to participate in the next Cup sorting, or volunteer again to serve as staff. I'm going to hand over my group project coordinator reigns in my house group, and just hang out as it makes sense. I would like to work towards an OWL badge next term, but without the pressure of letting anyone down. I'm really going for less pressure.
I plan to keep my level of Fantasia involvement the same, because I really feel like Fantasia is more in line with my goals and how I want to spend my crafting time. It's also a really low key group, so I don't feel pressured to do anything I don't have time for. I have some great ideas for the level of crafting I hope to accomplish next year, and I think Fantasia will be a wonderful creative outlet for that.
It's really hard for me to admit that I can't do something, or fulfill an obligation that I've willingly taken on. I'm really good at over committing myself, and I'm trying very hard to do the smart thing. I feel like I'm not doing anything well at the moment, because I have too many things to do. Time to refocus and kick some ass =)
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