Blahs

Do you ever feel invisible, or if you're not invisible, you're just wrong? I've got that feeling right now, and it's not much fun. I'm a natural lurker, and speaking up is usually not comfortable for me, so perhaps I'm more sensitive than I should be, but being ignored doesn't really inspire me to speak more. I suppose it could be argued that if I were more vocal, I would be more a part of the conversations around me, and therefore my contributions would be better taken. It's hard to feel comfortable doing that, though, when I feel like my current contributions aren't well received. Maybe I'm just in a funk this week. There's been too much stress lately, and not enough mellow. My feelings seem to be in a constant state of hurt. I need to dedicate this weekend to doing things I want to do, and not things I feel obligated to do. Granted, the bathrooms really can't wait any more...they're rather nasty, and I need to get the comforters washed, because it's fuck cold...but other than that, it'll be all about me. Maybe I'll even stay off the internet... ha, maybe